The past 24-hours has been stolen from me and I will never get it back. To my despair it is definitely going to happen again. I started this blog intending to post on it every day, but this minor task is proving to be ridiculously near impossible. Skyrim is a consumer of my very soul which is, ironic as the game has you consuming dragon souls. I write this post late at night after a near 24-hour marathon of killing bandits, dragons, bears, people (because I felt like it). But above ALL of these things,  I dedicated at least 18 hours smithing, enchanting and selling. Yes, I spent 18 hours doing this, and why? To grind my level to that of a God-like status as well as gaining the coin to purchase that charming little place next to the War Maiden’s weapons shop in Whiterun.

The addictiveness of this game is off the charts; one cannot simply just play for an hour or two. No, you need to sit down and let it suck you in completely. I do not understand why in a game that permits you free rein to do whatever you want, I choose to do the mundane. I compare myself to Joseph Stalin, who once upon a time, was appointed to the dull position of General Secretary. Which he used to disregard rivals and gain power. But the funny thing is, I am finding it fun and satisfying to carry out my repetitive way of playing Skyrim. It is a feeling I cannot describe fully but what I can say is that once I levelled up, I deemed all of the hard work worth it and start again.

I think this behaviour stems from my need to be fully prepared which was spawned from previous titles that I have played. If you’ve ever played a Final Fantasy title you’d understand that without proper preparation and level, you wouldn’t get very far. I believe that my years of playing RPG titles have taught me to always be prepared for difficult tasks, hard work is expected and patience is a virtue, not just for video games but also in real life.

Skyrim proves to be a thought provoking game in this first playthrough , but this game may also be the reason why I will fail my degree, but as long as I attain that full set of dwarven armour, its all good.

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